記憶....Memory...

After a long vacation, as usual, I come back to school, and start my busy life again.

In my life, I always try to balance everything. However, I just find a lot of unfair conlusions happening around me all the time. Was I wrong? Maybe I have to care about myself more than other people, no matter who they are. I feel a little tired now, but I know I should keep energetic as much as possible. If I started to be weak, I would not complete my goal of the future.

又繼續學校工作的生涯，唉...可是卻沒什麼繼續賺錢的動力。

失敗的影響太大了，未來也不知在哪裡，最近真的是做什麼都不起勁，中年男子的悲歌，好像就出現在自己身上，也不知道該怎麼辦，做什麼都不對，唉...I don't know how to help myself.

台東市街上店面出租的狀況近來非常多，雖說台灣經濟普遍不景氣，但是台東的景氣寒冬更凜冽。

老實說，在台東很少出門，但是有空出去時，發現台東市這一年說實在消失的店非常多，感覺非常不景氣，到處都是店面出租，難怪遊樂場沒人，商店街沒人，賣衣服的感覺也沒什麼人，這樣的狀況，也只有幾句話："難怪現在大家只認為公務員才是人，老師才是人，吃鐵飯碗才是人。"唉......

昨天去某個學校幫忙跳蚤市場，結果最後被請求當個夜市叫賣的，就印著頭皮上場。話說有一次跟著此校老師們去聚餐，後來他們在玩夜市賓果遊戲，但是主持人似乎不夠專業，於是我只好想說充當一下夜市賓果主持人，沒想到此次經驗被他們記著，這次他們跳蚤市場，最後當著所有社區家長與學生面前，叫賣，唉....

Sometimes I had to work for 12 hours a day. As a result, I didn't have much time to worry about my future plan. All I could to do is finish daily matters, and even I could't rest enough. Needless to say, I wish I would have a long vacation, and could enjoy a wonderful tour.  Nevertheless, it seems difficult to come true this dream. Maybe the only chance is that I will win the lottery before long.

Truely speaking, I have been in a pessimistic mood recently, and it seems to me to be hard to release myself. Someone has told me that I think too much, and I always give myself too much pressure. However, I seem to be lack of some self-confidence, even if I have done a lot of things that others can't do. I am a guy who needs a stage of life to prove myself, but I don't know where it is. As far as I'm concerned, the job I am now engaged in can help me to keep my living; nevertheless, I am not sure I can rely on it in ten or twenty years. On account of the thought, I cannot but devote my all time to work in order to save money as much as possible. However, the more money I make, the more uncertain thought I have. In brief, it must be a tough period in my life.

It's time to study for the sake of passing the test.

Getting bribery as much as you can before put into jail.When you read newspapers recently, you must find who have been bribed huge money, or who have received the envelop full of money. To tell the truth, I also want to meet this situation, but I must seize the chance to get money as much as I can before putting into jail. In case one may be accused of getting few bribery, I am of the opinion that it's not worthy to do it.